HEY GUYS!~ Aite.. My latest piece of work.. Kinda long.. boring perhaps.. freaky definitely but I only rite based on real life which means it must go on paper despite its lvl of freakishness..  Haven't got a name for this one yet but I'm sure my beloved frenz will think of one for me hehehe..   Enjoy! --

The many roads I’ve taken,

And the many pages I’ve turned,

Has left me with one lesson,

And that is to not trust anyone with my heart…

Once again the same situation arises,

Rearing at me its ugly head,

Forcing me to be misled,

Leaving me to make my own bed…

And it is once again that I have to decide,

Whether the road that I’m taking is right,

Whether this heart is safe in his hands,

Whether I should once again put my trust in a man…

I know I cannot hide forever,

And I know denial is neither the answer,

But I wish I could just hide away for a bit,

To take a vacation from all of the heat…

Having to make a hard decision,

To have to handle it all with the best of precision,

But I really can’t take more of this confusion,

I just can’t hear my heart though I give it a listen…

I just don’t know if what I hear is my heart,

Or whether it is my mind at its tricks,

And yet it seems I cannot stay apart,

From my burning desire to follow my feelings…

But I know I can’t,

For with decisions come circumstances,

And the wrong move could kill it all,

The wrong step could cause me to fall…

Down into the pit of depression,

Fall into the sickness I suffered from,

To forget the long, hard lesson,

That I had learnt the hard way…

The hands of time are moving fast,

The longer I wait, the more it is vast,

Coz’ time waits for no living soul,

And it’s all up to me to make my life whole…

So once again you’ve proven me right,

And force my trust to once again take its flight,

To keep my heart in it’s cold, empty state,

To never trust my life with what people call fate…

I ‘m leaving the lights on up in my room,

I’m leaving the pain from my bloody wound,

I can’t say I’m healed coz’ the pain it won’t end,

But I hope with my heart that through time it would mend…

And for time’s sake I would just pretend,

That for now I am happy and that I won’t cry again,

But behind the mask that covers the lies,

Is a heart that goes through pain that will never die…

aite.. so i changed the layout.. wanted to start off new.. my chatterbox is temporarily gone so i'm just gonna leave it that way til further notice.. heheh.. if you guys like you could just leave comments ^^ heheh.. much thankz~

left this place for soo long now heheh.. havent updated for awhile now.. i dunno.. i feel lyk deleting all my past posts n startin fresh.. what do you guys think?

i can't wait til this friday.. yet another Youth Generation! this generation's theme will be L.E.N.T >> "Love - Eternal N True" just refer to the details below :

so, like it says on the poster BRING ALONG YOUR BIBLE AND A FRIEND!  can't wait!!~ heheh.. AND there will also be a Youth Workshop, organized by the St Joseph's Parish Youth Ministry, on the 12th - 17th of March 2006 which is during the holz so no excuses on how there's school eh? heheh..

the youth workshop consists mainly of four sessions on 4 different ministries in our youth group which are:

Worship (Music) Ministry
Dance Ministry
Drama Ministry
Publication & Mass Media Ministry

*Secondary school students, college students, university students and working adults are eligible to attend this workshop.

Registration fee: RM10 (inclusive of all workshops)
Date: 12th - 17th March 2006
Venue: Please refer to registration form.

Forms available at Youth Room or Notice Board outside Youth Room. Take one now! Don't miss this out!!

well, that's about it.. the last day for registration will be on the 10th of March, this friday.. so hurry to get yourself a registration form yeah?

nite!~ take care and God bless all!  hope to see you there!~

28th December '05
okay! lotz to update.. recently went for Fel's bday!~ here are some pictures..

in a word.. FUN! lotz of ppl showed up, gorgeous home, AWESOME couch.. hahah.. had lotz of fun..

30th December '05
day after went for the Christmas Concert at Chapel of Mother Mary.. was GR8!! Evryone rocked!!

Mother Mary Chapel Children's Sketch


CHOICE Carolers


ONE WAY Dancers - His Love

UNDER THE WEATHER - - the ideal word to describe my "condition" hahah.. in chinese its called "kam tiok", in english.. a common cold.. i tink.. urghh.. so cold.. on n off.. i hate it in the morning.. wen i've juz woken up.. argghh.. newayz.. the Highlight of my Christmas : Midnite Mass!! "Reunited" wit Fel!!! hehehe.. it was so funny! we ran to each other dramatically lyk the lovers on tv and hugged each other in the middle of the road ahahahaah.. i noe.. DISTURBING haahah.. Fel, Lumpy, Get n I sat together!!! heheh.. soo funN!! n my mummy n daddy sit behind us ^^ was sooo funn!!

gonna get a new hp.. i tink.. parents agreed to it.. reward for my results ^^ heheh.. luvv thmm!!~mwahkz! got a headache deciding.. i ended up goin there n cummin back twice.. hahah.. n tmrz will be the third day.. juz not sure which i shud get u noe? the one i was originally planning to get was Nokia 6101..

I tink i'll stick to tis one ^^ heheh.. so.. i gez thts all.. heheh.. nitenite all~ luvv u all! take care! God bless!! HugzZ~

Carolling tonite was awesome!~ was also our last nite.. for my group anyway.. was soo funn.. arrived at the Youth Room late! YiKesSs! Felt bad walkin in lidat.. but turned out Chu chu, Susan, Livia and Errol were later than me so i gez it wasnt so bad.. felt so weird wearin tht SKIRT blehh..  newayz, after a short run thru in the YOuth RooM we went outside.. the bus was rite on time drivin in wit Lewis on the bus in the front.. luked so dramatic the way the bus drove in n he was standin there lyk a super hero drivin to our rescue hahah.. on a BUS! went to 5 hzes today.. but must say the most exciting place was at The LuncH BoX @ Travillion! Was soo cool! Felt lyk we had a real audience hhaha.. Lina and I stood at the back.. We noticed a few ppl standing outside behind us, watching.. We pretended they were our fans hahah.. After we sang our songs Lina applauded all of us including herself hahha.. as we felt the audiences' applaude was rather weak  hahah.. no offence.. but they were all still gr8.. so nice all the ppl there.. i tink.. hahah.. was bz spendin most of my time there lining up for the toilet hahah.. FULL TANK! kept jumping up n dwn lyk a diseased monkey, screaming for Lovelyn to hurry hahah.. tht was rude of me..  sry Love..  

The last hz for tonite was Jesabel's hz ^^ GR8 FOOD! hahah.. There wasnt enuf space so Lewis n Timmy sat on the chairs behind us.. gettin all comfy while we had to break our legs! HrMph! They were both so cute.. so afraid of the fan.. ahahh.. stopped the fan at Cyn since she was hot n we were all cold hahah.. Alot of them are still sick..

Timmy went arnd all nite in long sleeves, a hanky held against his chest lyk a pillow and a santa hat.. luked soo adorable! they all luked lyk lil kids dwn wit the fever.. soo cute.. but so sad  Carmella's sick too.. Fever.. Sigh.. n Cyn n I shared a drink wit her  hahah.. no biggie.. juz all the better so she wun feel lyk a sick person.. we treat her normally hahah.. (excuses) Cyn n I shared a plate of food at Jesabel's hz.. Food was sooo gud! Was STARVED! I also made a vry sad attempt to tempt Julie, hu cud not chew due to tooth aches (i tink), by chewing my food rite in front of her hahah.. I miss Julie!! I mean I dun get to be wit her often coz she's lyk one of the musician's and I'm one of the choir.. Newayz, after tht we were off.. WAYYY behind schedule so had to get back to the Youth Room.. Cyn n I "sheltered" Carmella "humbly" to the bus wit our files as she was alredi sick.. We were soo humble tht we evn strted shouting "faster faster!! RUNNNN!!!" hahah.. coz we were gettin wet hahah..

Got back to the Youth Room at arnd 1 wen the estimated time of arrival was lyk 12.30  ahaha.. hu cares.. we had fun!! hahah.. owh and Edmund and Emmanuel were so sweet!! They spent the whole morning baking cookies for the WHOLE carolling group! All put in lil packages!! AWWW!! Thankz guyzz!! Neway, today was gr8.. sad tht it had to end so soon.. will miss it all.. once sch reopens wun get tht many chances to go for these activities anymore...  

Newayz, thts all i gez.. results cum out tmrz at 10.. gotta get up early! YiKEsS!! so nerve recking!! But after tht heading ovr to Chris' hz for a jamming session n afterwards to KMC for a swim  Wonder if I'll still haf the heart to jam or swim after lukin at my results..

AHHH!! Dun wanna tink abt it.. Newayz.. Nite nite!! Take care, God bless!! HugzZ!!